Birthdays are typically unpleasant and strange for me. As someone who tends to overanalyze, I often find myself engaging with these periodic milestones more deeply than necessary.
This September, I celebrated my 25th birthday, a year marked by significant changes. I left my job at CRED, a place I truly love, to start freelancing. A hard but necessary shift made to give myself space to explore my creativity and contemplate next steps. It was also the year I experienced taking responsibility for another living being for the first time, endured the dreadful saga of moving houses(thrice) in Bangalore, travelled a decent amount, and navigated some health emergencies within my family.
It's safe to say that all these thoughts were rushing up and down my brain, even more so on my birthday. I tried my best to distract myself and ward off intrusive thoughts. However, I wasn't entirely successful.
I mostly spent that day in solitude, accompanied only by my dog and my girlfriend. We lounged on the couch the entire day, indulging in a marathon of the 'Lord of the Rings' trilogy. Comfort food was on the menu, with an order of Domino's pizza. A simple end to an uncomfortable day.
Now settled, I am enjoying process of making it my own, carefully setting up each corner to reflect my taste and my countless things I have collected over time.
The goals , weirdly for the first time feel like they are defined by me. Its an exhilarating, scary and a difficult responsibility all at once.2023 pushed me to think what kind of a life I want for myself, what is it that truly satisfies my personal aspirations and more than that, makes me happy.Both on a personal and a professional level it has taken me months to piece together a fraction of the puzzle. That is not the say it is done or it will not change in the future.
I do a lot impulse shopping and it has become a bad habit but I love to indulge in it. I love getting myself toys, coffee table books , retro tech etc etc. Needless to say, I am the farthest thing from a minimalist.
Patience truly is a virtue. I've realized that some aspects of life require extra time, and it's important to allow for that without rushing. This has been a lesson in mindfulness for me.
These are my fears :
1. Something happening to my family/dog/friends.
2. Not living up to my potential.
3. Compromising on my creative and professional choices.
4. Arthirits ( my dad got operated for it recently
so pretty fresh in my mind )Snakes & Spiders
1. Improving punctuality.
2. Focusing on my health.Undertaking bigger, better, and more ambitious projects.
3. Developing a much healthier work-life balance.
4. Hopefully, traveling to different countries.
STAY
IN
THE
LOOP
NO SPAM. OCCASIONAL CERTIFIED GOOD STUFF.
PLS
COME
SAY
HI :)